A very detailed description of panic/anxiety and the fragmented nature of it: both feeling it and identifying with it while observing it.

It seems to me that unless one is a routine stoner, it's best to establish a trusting set and setting before getting high. In a way, your psyche was caught off guard by the altered state. It's amazing to realize/remember that, to a novice, weed can have an effect like psychedelics.

Apropos was it good that that happened? Since you survived it and learned a bunch about yourself, I'd say bravo! I was always thankful for even my worst LSD trips because they woke me up; destroyed my ego... which can be a very beneficial thing to do.

I should also say that as a meditator and dharma practitioner, I found your insights about the observer during the anxiety attack to be very spot on. Always remember: You are not your anxiety, panic, hunger, desire, etc. That perspective, that identification with bare awareness as opposed to the afflictive symptoms, will get you through anything--and I mean anything--without suffering.

I loved reading this. I want more on all topics.